The ramblings of a guy with a whole lot of questions.


Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Dear Guardian Angel,




Dear Guardian Angel,

I just wanted to you apologize for wasting your time. I know you've worked really hard and ridiculous amounts of over time. And time and time again I've gone off and done something completely stupid and asinine. I hope you don't feel like a failure or anything. I mean, its really not your fault. I'm kind of a lost cause. No matter what happens I have no one to blame but myself. I certainly don't blame you for all the trouble I've found myself in. I just seem to choose the wrong path more often than not. You know what's even more ridiculous? I know full well how good it feels to choose the right path over the wrong path and I still do it! You must think I'm a complete moron. Remember that whole "obey the nudge" thing? Remember how awesome that was. I did some really silly things then, but it felt so good. I helped people without a second thought as what it was going to cost me. Anyways, I'm sorry you've had to sit idly by and watch me run head long into brick walls over and over again. No one should have to endure watching someone fail as frequently and tragically as I do.

I also wanted to let you know that I'm releasing you of your duty to me. There's someone way more deserving of your services than me. I know she's probably already got someone watching over her, but maybe you two could team up and really guard her for me. She's precious. She's gifted. I'm a better person just for knowing her. I dread the day that he hurts her again. If I can't be there for her, can you promise me that you will? Because honestly, if I am there. I'll just choose the wrong path again and do something I would later regret. Remember that dream? Yeah, that was a little too real. At the same time the dream really showed me how deep this thing goes. Know what I mean?

So thanks for all your hard work and good luck in all your future endeavors. Sorry I was so much trouble for you.

-dp

Monday, April 20, 2009

searching for a cure....



Remember all the times that we used to play?
You were lost and I would save you
I don't think those feelings will ever fade
You were born a part of me
I was never good at hiding anything
My thoughts break me
Do you understand what you mean to me?
You are my faith

[Chorus]
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
Don't take her smile away from me
She's broken and I'm far away
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
if you make the world a stage for me
then I hope that you can hear me scream
Won't you cure my tragedy?

When I sit and think of the days we shared
and the nights you covered for me
Every little thing that I ever did
You would stand by me
Everytime you cried it would take my wind
My heart would break
If I could be strong like you were for me
You are my faith

[Chorus]
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
Don't take her smile away from me
She's broken and I'm far away
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
if you make the world a stage for me
then I hope that you can hear me scream
Won't you cure my tragedy?

Can you hear me scream? [x2]

[Chorus]
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
Don't take her smile away from me
She's broken and I'm far away
Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2]
if you make the world a stage for me
then I hope that you can hear me scream
Won't you cure my tragedy?

I can't take this anymore
I can't feel this anymore
Won't you take and give her pain to me
'Cause my whole life I've made mistakes
Can you hear me scream? [x2]

Monday, April 13, 2009

This is not the change you were looking for....





"Tear Away"

I'm tearing away
Pieces are falling I can't seem to make them stay
You run away
Faster and faster you can't seem to get away
Break
Hope there's a reason
For questions unanswered I just don't see everything
Yes I'm inside you
Tell me how does it feel to feel like this
Just like I do
I don't care about anyone else but me
I don't care about anyone
Do I really want this
Sometimes I scare myself I just can't let it go
Can you believe it
Everything happens for reasons I just don't know
I don't care about anyone else but me
I don't care about anyone
I don't care about anyone else but me
I don't care about anyone or anything but me
God d**n I love me
I don't care about anyone else but me
I don't care about anyone
I don't care about anyone else but me
I don't care about anyone or anything
I don't care about anyone else but me
I don't care about anyone